...of Emotions is how I would describe the past few weeks.
I was feeling so low and so down, I have never felt like that before. I tried all my usual tricks that pull me out of those kind of slumps (exercise, getting out of the house, having friends over, taking a bath, cleaning...) But NOTHING was working. At least not entirely, I would begin to feel better but the second I gave myself a minute to think I would start beating myself up again. All I could think about is how I was not good enough, my body is frumpy, my hair is boring, I can't keep my house as clean as I want, I am not spiritual enough, I don't spend enough quality time with my kids, I am not giving my husband the attention he needs and deserves, laundry is the devil... My sweet, amazing, strong, wonderful husband tried everything he could to please me (rubbing my feet, cleaning, taking over kid duty when he got home, etc.) and I was not responding to any of these amazing, thoughtful acts of service. But last weekend I realized with the help of my mom, I was depressed. I think that just by realizing it and saying it out loud made the difference for me. My mom gave me some herbal "happy" pills and they did make a difference. I took those for 3 days and then decided to see how I would do without them. I feel GREAT, back to my old self again. I think I may have had some CrAzY PMSing going on but I am glad to be feeling happy again even if I do still feel that laundry is the devil ;)
*I can't do a post without showing off my cute family*
I LOVE this man!
I am so glad he has stuck around and puts up with my CrAzY emotions!
6 comments:
I am so glad that you are having good days :) My despression comes with my PMS as well, and it sucks, sorry!!! Love your cute kids and those fun pictures :) Love you lots girl!!!
I love YOU! I am so glad that life is looking up. That is so true for me too...once I realize what it is then it's a little easier to kick it in the butt! I really hope you know what an amazing woman you are, Adri. I look up to you in so, so many ways. And, girl, you're totally hot!
In the car today I screamed at Josh when he missed a turn, than I started bawling because I felt so bad. I can go with you on that rollercoaster ride if you need a buddy!!!
If there is one thing I know, it's that you are a wonderful person, a great mom and one the best friends a girl could ask for! I'm sorry that you were feelin like that.
Cute Kids!! I think we all feel like that every once in a while. I am glad things are back to normal for you!
I think after going through my own depression (which I think runs in our lovely Larsen Genetics) the hardest part is realizing that you are actually depressed. I'm so glad you are feeling better and that you have such an awesome man for a husband! I know from experience that having Awesome husbands help so much when you need a little extra push up that big hill! love you!
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